Many instances that happen even on a daily basis can be considered another chapter in my life. I wish I could better allow you to see what I mean, but photographing my every moment of every day or even for just the weekend is something I just don't have the motivation to do.
I like to believe that I'm prone to change, except in a good and inevitable way that I sometimes enjoy - from the color of my nail polish to the hobbies I choose to the way I arrange my room to my studying habits - everything about be as well as around me constantly changes. Sometimes it happens more than I'd like it to, but overall I enjoy it. In a nutshell, I am a mess; I'm an emotional wreck that can't agree on anything permanently; I'm complicated.
Nothing about me is permanent, that's why I can't even decide on a tattoo if ever I would have myself inked. My favorite flower for various reasons interchanges, but for the most part it's never the same throughout point A to point B in time. I have no favorite quote or a meaningful motto that I live by. I don't want myself inked knowing that I might not want it later on in life. Tattoos are the least of my issues, there's are a whole ton more of things or thoughts that change over time.
I digress. The point of this post is to say that change is constant and sometimes I like it sometimes I don't, and sometimes change happens when you least expect it. I hate first days of anything because getting used to it is a horrible experience for me and when I'm finally used to it I dread the day and complain too much. I've got to get rid of bad habits and shake off this feeling of worry. I hate rejection. Each chapter of my life seems to end with rejection so when I'm ready for a new start is when I declare that it's officially another chapter of my life (to keep an optimistic mindset and to keep the motivation flowing).
Case in point: tomorrow is my first day of work at a cafe. I hope this time it will become a regular job where I get scheduled weekly unlike my other job that I'm not too sure where I stand.
